It’s the calm before the storm. They arrive tomorrow morning. I am prepared and ready to do battle with my introvert tendencies; I can deal with the exhaustion in a week. The thing about living on your own and having a routine, and being an introvert, and slightly high on the autism spectrum, and a bit miserable… is that spending time with others for any length of time really does take it out of you. It’s difficult for some people to understand this; some people thrive on the company of others, get a little stir-crazy if they’re not around people for any length of time. For me though, apart from my time at work, I don’t have that much contact with people and, well, I actually quite like that.
April though, she is very special to me and her company is so uplifting, so very easy. I do joke about fancying her, she’s an attractive woman in all senses, but my affection for her is grounded in her being one of the best friends I’ve ever had. She has provided some of my best times over the past nine or so years; she has supported me through some of my toughest times. She has encountered devastation and loss herself, but always, she is April.
I am very lucky to know her and I’m certain those words would be said by everybody who has been fortunate enough to know her. I’m so happy that she’s taken the time out to come over to visit me. I feel extremely privileged.
Sacha, on the other hand. Well, the jury is out on that one, but eight years is a long time and there is a huge difference between a three year old and an eleven year old. I’m looking forward to seeing her again, it’s going to be… interesting.
Anxiety levels were a little high earlier on as I scoured Morrison’s for inspiration as to what to feed two jet lagged visitors tomorrow. I went for fruit, cheese and crisps. And coffee. I’ll let them decide what they want when they get here. Needless to say, they’ll want feeding seal cub wellington at 2am, but they’ll have to settle for a kebab. Oh GOD! That just autocorrected to kabob – must’ve known I was referring to feeding North Americans.
Twots.
Dogatitis
The dog is barking his head off. His skin has flared up again and he shouts to tell the world that he’s not happy about being itchy. And there’s nothing I can do to help him. He has his medicated baths and his flea treatments, but this is just how he gets at this time of year. It’s desperately sad to witness, but more than that, his incessant barking and scratching and nipping is fucking irritating to the point that I want to kill him.
SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP!