As the mourners stood and the rose-draped coffin commenced its journey from the church, we followed it out to the rain-soaked September afternoon with Ritorna a Rimini sending us on our way. My Dad had died four weeks earlier and it was finally time to let those who knew him say farewell.
Unlike when Mum died, I couldn’t bring myself to say any words for my Dad; not that I didn’t want to, I just couldn’t. There was always a closeness between us; some of his very last words to me as he lay in a hospital bed that final day were recollections of the moments we had shared together. “Un po di vino, do you remember that? And the time you got lost on the beach in Rimini and I came to get you and carry you back?” I told him that I’d regaled colleagues of that very same story just a few weeks earlier, and how he used to wake me up at the crack of dawn and take me to the beach as they were preparing it for the day. We’d walk hand in hand, wearing matching hats and flip-flops and watch as the sand was raked, calling at the shop on the way back to his sister’s apartment to buy provisions for breakfast.
Back home, I wouldn’t leave him alone: following him everywhere; watching him shave; pulling at his nose; trotting along to Swinton with him on a Saturday afternoon. He was the one who’d taken me and my sister to the park behind the church, he was the one who picked me up after I’d run into the path of a swing and got booted in the head by my sister’s foot. He was the one who was so proud of us all, but who embarrassed us at all our school performances by shouting out the oddest things from his spot in the audience.
“Daaaaaad! Don’t!!!”
He was passionate, kind, generous, loving, clever and so funny in his own, quiet way. Always with the strongest Italian accent, and in latter years, without his teeth.
“He was a lovely, lovely man. So well-mannered and charming”, I’ve been told by many outside the family who knew him.
Coming to England to follow the love of his life was such a brave thing to do when there was little support for him. He learnt English on his own by talking to his family and colleagues. His job, his duty, was to provide for his family and to support his wife; he did this brilliantly.
My parents were inseparable. They gave us shouty, argumentative household and overcame the struggles of poverty, but they gave us everything they had including a very keen sense of right and wrong. But there was also music and laughter and wondeful food and love. It was an absolute privilege to have had them as my parents.
Dad hadn’t been in the best of health for some time when Mum died. We all thought that losing his soulmate would see him give up on life; all he ever wanted was to be with her and without her, there was no him. But despite everything, despite his failing heart and other health issues, he kept going. For over two years, my dear Dad kept going for his family.
Ultimately though, his heart failed him and he took a final breath one friday night in August. He was still warm when we got to him and I held his hand, half expecting him to squeeze my arthritic fingers with the vice-like grip that he’d managed to retain even at the the end of his life.
Looking at a frail old man in a hospital bed, few would have known how he and his family experienced the absolute poverty of growing up in Nazi-occupied Italy. It might have been hard to imagine the dashing bagnino who wooed that English woman on the beach in Rimini. Or the young man who moved countries not once, but twice to build houses in Frankfurt and then to build a family in the UK. He was many things to a lot of people, but to me, he was always my protector, my Dad. I am so very proud to call him that.